I’m one of those. I’m so lonely and sad. I don’t want to go through with the paperwork. I just can’t. Something is holding me back. As much as I love m, something is holding me back and I can’t stop obsessing about this shit. Paperwork or not, if I can’t find the underlying situation, then ugh. I want to keep him but not paperwork it. What the fuck is up with all this bullshit. It’s fucking Christmas for fuck’s sake… SHIT.